Twitter Thread: Being Disappointed With Evangelical Christians in the Trump Era

Last night there was a Twitter thread that asked who disappointed you the most in the Trump era? While some people named specific politicians others talked about evangelicals they once knew, their pastor, people like Franklin Graham and Eric Metexas. For me the thread hit home in that as I feel devastated by how much was lost these past few years, many other people are also dealing with the same emotions. In the view of this blog American evangelicalism needs to disappear as if stands for nothing and has no character. Continue reading

Learning to Hate Yourself. A Reflection on the Forever War Against Lust and Pornography Among Men in Evangelical Culture and the Destroyed Lives Left Behind

The New York Times has been writing about the profile of the Atlanta shooter and his “sexual addiction” battles against pornography and lust. Anyone who spent time in evangelicalism will identify with his purity battles that he dealt with.  In the “forever war” against pornography the battle with lust is long, exhausting and soul crushing.  Males inside evangelicalism realize that they often can’t win. And they are also caught in the dilemma of wanting to date but fearing of becoming sexually active while they do. Accountability is often a means of control and a weapon used by people in ministry. The culture against porn often uses fear and warns that if you look at pornography you too will become just like Ted Bundy and a serial killer hunting women down out of compulsion. Its known as the “forever war” and in evangelicalism it leads to PTSD, anxiety and other issues. Continue reading

At This Point the Emphasis Needs to be the Deconstruction of Evangelicalism. If You Stay an Evangelical Christian Despite the Constant Scandals and Problems I Would Honestly Question Your Faith

This is a haunting post to write but its another necessary one as I do an autopsy on my dying faith. For so many years I spent time building up churches and ministries as I was part of the evangelical machine. Today I am committed to their deconstruction Marquette University’s Cru being on the top of the list. But there is more especially in light of the constant scandals and problems at the churches and ministries I raise in this post. If you go to these churches like McLean Bible, Fairfax Community Church, or Wooded Hills Bible I would question your faith. Continue reading

Ravi Zacharias Sexual Misconduct is Confirmed and Considering the Cognitive Dissonance Issue Among Evangelical Christians

The board hired by Ravi Zacharias International Ministries confirms that Ravi Zacharias engaged in sexual misconduct. The report by Martin & Miller is posted on journalist Julie Roys website right before Christmas. This is a post reflecting on a Zacharias event in Milwaukee in 2000 hosted by Steve Mayer and prayed over by Paul Coldagelli. Cognitive dissonance is a major issue in American evangelicalism and it makes the movement toxic. The writer of this blog has had to deal with it regularly from evangelicals when he was one. How are evangelicals going to react to the claim that Ravi Zacharias misled and deceived people? Many evangelicals are going to be in denial and stick their head in the sand. Its all that many evangelicals can do.  Continue reading

Reflecting on Christian Nationalism in Evangelical Christianity and Being Caught Flat Footed in its 2016 Resurgence

This post is a reflection on Christian nationalism from 1999 until 2018. How it evolved over the years before surging in 2016 and catching me flat footed. Christian nationalism is deeply divisive and causes unnecessary conflict.  After coming back to the church it became one of the issues to drive me away from it. Why did Christian nationalism flare up to such an extreme version in 2016? This post attempts to answer that question toward the end. Continue reading

My Brainwashing and a Personal Reflection on When I was Under the Kool Aid in Campus Crusade for Christ at Fresno State

This past weekend I was cleaning at home and fond something that was a window into my past. It was when I was involved in Campus Crusade for Christ at Fresno State. An article in the local Fresno State newspaper explained the role Wicca played in a person’s life. In response I had to write an evangelical response in a letter to the editor which caused controversy. Someone later on called me out. Today’s post is about my frame of mind when I was under the Kool Aid. And its something that I deeply regret.  Continue reading

How Some Evangelicals View Stonewall Jackson and Analysis by Jeff Sharlot

Here in Virginia the other day the statute of Stonewall Jackson was removed in Richmond. Jeff Sharlot on social media discussed the theological implications of that for fundamentalist. A comment he said about Campus Crusade for Christ in a section from his book “The Family” hit me hard and reminded me of a situation in Milwaukee years ago where I saw Crusade staff almost worship Stonewall Jackson. The coding for this post is going to have issues, so please forgive that issue.  Continue reading

Of all the Scandals Written About at The Wondering Eagle, Bryan Loritts is the Most Disturbing. Here’s Why

As I am writing about Bryan Loritts I thought I would step back and explain how destructive Loritts was to myself when it came to evangelicalism and church. I went from a period of admiring him to realizing he is a conman. This is the story of how a 24 year old grad student went from looking up to Bryan Loritts to realizing he is a fraud. Continue reading

The Sovereign Grace Child Sex Abuse Scandal and Bob Kauflin. Considering Legacy and Death and How Will He Be Remembered?

Bob Kauflin has been one of the strongest supporters of C.J. Mahaney. When the Sovereign Grace child sex abuse scandal broke it was Kauflin who defended Mahaney and moved to Louisville, Kentucky to support the embattled and corrupt minster. This blog would like to raise a question, what will Bob Kauflin’s legacy be? When he is in hospice one day and the Kauflin children are working on his obituary how will be be remembered in light of the Sovereign Grace Ministry scandal?  Continue reading