According to the New York Times Rick Joyner Warns of Civil War, While His Children Tell Him to Be Quiet

The New York Times had a fascinating op-ed this weekend by Nicholas Krostof. Those of you who spent time in charismatic evangelicalism known who Rick Joyner is in that stream of theology. The Times ran an op-ed that talks about how his children have rejected evangelicalism, and how they feel a responsibility to speak out against their father. Despite the tension they still have holidays together also. Its a story of how in an evangelical family tension and conflict runs deep.  Continue reading

Learning to Hate Yourself. A Reflection on the Forever War Against Lust and Pornography Among Men in Evangelical Culture and the Destroyed Lives Left Behind

The New York Times has been writing about the profile of the Atlanta shooter and his “sexual addiction” battles against pornography and lust. Anyone who spent time in evangelicalism will identify with his purity battles that he dealt with.  In the “forever war” against pornography the battle with lust is long, exhausting and soul crushing.  Males inside evangelicalism realize that they often can’t win. And they are also caught in the dilemma of wanting to date but fearing of becoming sexually active while they do. Accountability is often a means of control and a weapon used by people in ministry. The culture against porn often uses fear and warns that if you look at pornography you too will become just like Ted Bundy and a serial killer hunting women down out of compulsion. Its known as the “forever war” and in evangelicalism it leads to PTSD, anxiety and other issues. Continue reading

When Your Faith is a Lie, and You Were Conned. Another Component of Moore’s Leaving the Southern Baptists

There is a part of Beth Moore’s story that hit home with me. It deals with how Moore felt like her head was spinning when many Southern Baptists who criticized Bill Clinton then  both defended and embraced Donald Trump as his affairs and abuse came forward. For me the painful aspect of being thrust in such a crisis is when you realize that faith is a lie. And that is because of what occurs when those who taught you what faith is throw it all away to support someone of questionable character. Continue reading

At This Point the Emphasis Needs to be the Deconstruction of Evangelicalism. If You Stay an Evangelical Christian Despite the Constant Scandals and Problems I Would Honestly Question Your Faith

This is a haunting post to write but its another necessary one as I do an autopsy on my dying faith. For so many years I spent time building up churches and ministries as I was part of the evangelical machine. Today I am committed to their deconstruction Marquette University’s Cru being on the top of the list. But there is more especially in light of the constant scandals and problems at the churches and ministries I raise in this post. If you go to these churches like McLean Bible, Fairfax Community Church, or Wooded Hills Bible I would question your faith. Continue reading

What White Evangelicals and Christians I Once Knew Taught Me About Faith in the Trump Era

This is a hard post to compose, but its something that I have been meaning to do for a while. The Trump era was painful, chief among it was being at the receiving end of bullying, abuse or seeing such disturbing hypocrisy. Today’s post is about Steve Papez, Chad Hart and Josiah Jenkins and his family. Its about people in ministry I once looked up to who showed me who they really were these last few years. In this case the bridges have been burned and they will never be rebuilt. And with that I find peace especially with leaving such people in my wake.  Continue reading

A Message From my Former Elder at Wooded Hills Church Reveals Why its a Toxic Cult

Recently I got a message from a former elder at Wooded Hills Bible Church in the Milwaukee area. Wooded Hills is a cult outside Milwaukee that is a hodgepodge of hyper charismatic theology, hostility to science, with some anti -vaccination individuals mixed together.  My former elder accused me of supporting a baby killer. This is a gloves off post in response to this cult. Continue reading

Charismatic Evangelicalism and Trying to Raise People From the Dead. From Olive Heiligenthal of Bethel in California to Wooded Hills in Wisconsin

Charismatic Christians have tried to raise people from the death in their history. Bethel in Redding, California made national news in December of 2019 for trying to resurrect Olive Heiligenthal . Likewise I was part of a charismatic church in Wisconsin that had a pastor who tried to raise someone from the dead. This behavior is incredibly abusive and just disturbing.  Continue reading

Reflecting on Christian Nationalism in Evangelical Christianity and Being Caught Flat Footed in its 2016 Resurgence

This post is a reflection on Christian nationalism from 1999 until 2018. How it evolved over the years before surging in 2016 and catching me flat footed. Christian nationalism is deeply divisive and causes unnecessary conflict.  After coming back to the church it became one of the issues to drive me away from it. Why did Christian nationalism flare up to such an extreme version in 2016? This post attempts to answer that question toward the end. Continue reading

Anti-Vaxxers and the New Apostolic Reformation’s Radiance International in Los Angeles and Micah Conrad’s Story in the Washington Post

The Washington Post recently told the story of Micah Conrad of Los Angeles, California. A kid in his late 20’s who was raised in evangelicalism and today producing videos for the anti-vaxxer movement. A deeper look revealed Conrad has links to the Radiance International in Hollywood, California as led by Jonathan and Sharon Ngai who are deeply involved in the New Apostolic Reformation Movement. This is the story of a lost individual and this post offers concerns about the New Apostolic Reformation movement. In addition you can read the entire Washington Post story in this blog post. Continue reading

When Church is Dangerous to Your Health: Kevin Byrum’s Uplink in Menominee Falls, Wisconsin Discourages Face Masks During a Pandemic

Uplink was a break off of Wooded Hills Bible Church and planted in Menominee Falls, Wisconsin by Kevin Byrum. Kevin preaches at Uplink. In a recent social media posting Kevin stressed that face masks are not required and thus discourages them from being used. What do you do when church is hazardous to your health?  Or when it poses a threat to the community is serves? That is the subject of this post at The Wondering Eagle.  Continue reading