An Open Letter to Eric Pauls

An open letter to a friend of mine in Fresno, California. I met Eric through Campus Crusade for Christ at Fresno State. He has deeply impacted my life and tonight I just want to step back and reflect on a friendship I have known since 1999. Through crisis and hardship Eric has blessed my life deeply. That showed itself again in the lobby of St. Agnes Hospital amidst a medical crisis. Thanks for your friendship Eric.
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What I Appreciated from My Faith Crisis and What I Deeply Regret

A text out of the nowhere by James Crestwood saying he was in D.C. and asking to get together led to this quick and personal post. This addresses what I appreciated from my faith crisis. From the people I have met through this blog from Community Evangelical Free, to Albuquerque Blue and other skeptics. To people like Dee Parsons and Gail my adopted grandmother in Michigan and more. What do I regret from my faith crisis? That Andrew and I clashed so much and I was confrontational. Part of this post is a response to Blue’s question. Continue reading

2015 The Wondering Eagle in Review: The Top Posts, Statistics and Feedback; In the End All I Wanted is Peace with Andrew White

An overview of The Wondering Eagle for 2015. The end results…181 posts and 54,000 people who have read. The role that this blog played in The Village Church scandal and what is happening behind the scenes. Also a review of the top posts and my favorite articles that I want to highlight. Eagle is ready for 2016 and it is shaping to be a very busy year. This blog arose out of pain from a false accusation from a Care Group Leader at Eric Simmon’s Redeemer Arlington in the Washington, D.C. area. If individuals have concerns over it, they can approach Redeemer and Andrew White ultimately….in the end all I wanted is peace. Continue reading

A Post for Veterans Day: A Story out of Operation Red Wings in Afghanistan; and Evangelical Christians and Friendship

A post written for Veterans Day, November 11, 2015. The story of Operation Red Wings in the Afghanistan war. An unlikely friendship between a Navy SEAL and an Afghan villager. Some thoughts on shunning, evangelicals and friendship, with the problems that exist. There is a homework assignment for each reader since its Veterans Day. Continue reading

Christianity Today Article on Doubt and Hardship in the Missionary Field; Plus Why I am Encouraging Other Christians to Support a Recovering From Religion Fundraiser at Neil Carter’s Blog


Christianity Today publishes an article about hardship, doubt and even agnosticism in the missionary field. It addresses the problems and challenges that are faced, and the harm in making missionaries idols. Plus I also explain why I support Recovering from Religion’s Hotline project, and why this Christian is going to make a donation to it the next time I get paid. Recovering From Religion by manning a hot line is doing something that the evangelical Christian churchs should do, but are failing at doing.   Continue reading

Arian Foster Comes out on Openly Secular, Is he the Secular Answer to Tim Tebow?

The first NFL football player has come out openly as saying he doesn’t believe in God to ESPN. He’s Arian Foster of the Houston Texans and is being viewed as the Anti-Tim Tebow. He recently uploaded a video on his lack of belief in God at Openly Secular. Today we are going back to atheism or secular humanism and discussing Arian Foster. I am grateful for this discussion and his openness of his lack of faith and applaud his courage. We need to have these discussions on atheism/secularism and the only way we can have them are if people are honest. Continue reading

How I Managed a False Accusation Given Birth to by a USAF Captain and Care Group Leader from Redeemer Arlington for 408 Days

Today’s post deals with how I managed a false accusation for 408 days, from May 8, 2013 until June 20, 2014. I get into the weeds in this post and discuss how I was accused of a crime I didn’t commit. While I lived under a threat Andrew White resumed recruiting to Redeemer Arlington. This post explores the PTSD that happened, and how a testimony of a teenager at Wooded Hills Bible Church of a false accusation gave me hope. Plus why an attorney believed I had a defamation of character lawsuit against Andrew White.  Despite that all I wanted was to have Andrew White take the initiative and contact me and say, “I’m sorry Eagle.” Is that too hard from an Officer trained at the Air Force Academy in Colorado Springs?  Today’s post deals with the darkest season of my life. Continue reading

Eagle Writes a Journal Entry Inspired from Neil Carter’s Godless in Dixie on Grieving the Loss of Your Faith

A post over at Neil Carter’s Godless in Dixie inspired this entry. In a post Matt Oxley explains the 5 steps to passing from faith to loss of faith. In my faith crisis I went through all 5 steps. I have no idea why I am not an atheist today. I’ve reflected on that long and hard. But as a Christian I deeply empathize with what is written. My faith crisis was exceptionally dark, and this post at Godless in Dixie moved me in an emotional way. My comments in the post are my reaction to what is written. There will be some difficult language in this post. Continue reading