Happy Fathers Day Dad!

A Father’s Day note to my Dad who passed away on November 21, 2018 of a brain tumor. I love you Dad. I always will. Happy Fathers Day! Today is a bittersweet day and one that I have dreaded. 

“You don’t raise heroes, you raise sons. And if you treat them like sons, they’ll turn out to be heroes, even if it’s just in your own eyes.

Walter M Schirra Sr.

“My father gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person, he believed in me.” 

Jim Valvano 

 

I want to wish my Dad a happy fathers day. How do you do that when he passed away? Today is the first time in my life where I did not buy you a father’s day card since Dad’s death on November 21, 2018. To be honest I have dreaded this day and knew it would be here. And today is that day. Recently I went into a CVS Pharmacy to pick up some medicine and when I saw the Father’s Day cards I broke down and wept in the aisle. Since I can’t tell Dad what I want to say in person, or in a phone call this is the only way to communicate my thoughts about Dad.


Dad, 

Thank you for being the perfect father. Thank you for loving me from when I was born until the very end in the emergency room. Thank you for watching my Little League Baseball games and my San Joaquin Memorial High School Football games. Dad,  even with your schedule as a neurosurgeon,you never missed a game. Thank you for going camping on a couple of Boy Scout trips. Thank you for helping me with math and anatomy in high school. Thank you for taking me to Fresno State football games. Thank you for the times you told me to lose weight and exercise more. Thank you for the the times we drove form California to Montana when I went to Carroll College in Helena. Thank you for visiting in Washington, D.C. Thank you for your love, affection, grace, and caring. Thank you for sharing culture, education, theater, and more. How empty would my life be without your influence. I can say with authority that you were probably the greatest man who influenced me. 

Dad I am flawed but I hope I have made you proud. In life I hope I made you smile and brought you joy. I hope I honored you and that your investment into me was worth it. I hope I grew up into the man you wanted me to be. I poured my life into you even when you were ill. I helped you travel and took you to New Orleans, Missouri/Kansas and Montana. I hope I made your life rich and worthwhile. I want you to know that there is a huge void that exists. The emptiness is noticeable and I feel like my world has been shattered by your death. I do know that pain exists because love was there first. But that doesn’t make it easy. But Dad I love you..I will always love you. 

Thanks for everything. I miss you. 

Love 

David 

2 thoughts on “Happy Fathers Day Dad!

  1. May your sadness be tinged with joy as you recall a father who loved you deeply and, almost certainly was very proud of all you have become. I push through the tears on these days and think of the love, the laughter and the crazy that was my dad. Bask in the memory of his sure love this day, and don’t be concerned if the tears come – they are natural and good.

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  2. I agree with the previous comment. I cry when the feelings of loss rush in. I’ve been doing better now with celebrating my Dad’s life instead of focusing on his passing. Although sometimes, I do start getting misty-eyed when I order some Tempura Shrimp Bento Box (his favorite) or just yesterday, when the Zumba instructor decides to play Luther Vandross’ “Dance with my Father” for a cool down work out. May the love of your Dad continue to surround you and remain in your heart.

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