The Final Trip to Stanford Medical Center in Palo Alto, California

My family made the final trip to Stanford Medical Center where we thanked the doctors who treated my Dad. It was something that we planned to do. I will forever remain grateful for the medical treatment that Stanford gave my Dad. In the meeting today we also sadly learned that it was most likely that Dad’s brain tumor metastasized into a glioblastoma.

“I am not ashamed to say that no man I ever met was my father’s equal, and I never loved any other man as much.”

Hedy Lamarr

Dad at the Signature Room at the top of the John Hancock Center in Chicago.

Meghan McCain’s eulogy at John McCain’s funeral

When my Dad practiced medicine from time to time he referred a complicated medical situation to Stanford. As a physician he treated people with tenderness and care. Then sadly after he closed his medical practice in time he became the patient and he was referred to Stanford. In 2012 a brain tumor was removed and he went through radiation and temodar treatment. And he was given the best medical treatment by Stanford. In late 2017 as my family was touched by the sting of death with Mom’s death Dad’s brain tumor returned. There were many trips up to Stanford. Many trips in meeting with the doctors, undergoing MRI’s and anxiously getting those scans read. Stanford was involved in the treatment of Dad all the way to the end.

My family went to Stanford this morning for one final meeting with the neuroscience team. We brought wine for them as a part of the meeting. For my sister is was weird for Dad not to be there. That weighed on my mind also. When we met with the doctor we asked a number of questions.

  1. They don’t know what causes a brain tumor.
  2. In modern medicine there are different hypothesis as to what causes them.
  3. There is much research and work to do in treatment that hopefully will come forward in time.
  4. The brain tumor most likely metastasized into a glioblastoma in the end when it came back. That is what usually happens in many other situations.

We spoke with the doctor for a couple of minutes and I thanked him for the wonderful care that he gave my Dad. Stanford as a medical institution gave first rate care and they are to be commended. While I am beyond saddened that Dad is gone, I will remain forever thankful for the professional medical care that was given at Stanford. When we were leaving the nurse practitioner gave her condolences and shared that her father died. She looked at it in the lens that the suffering is over. I remarked to my sister in the car that one aspect of our life is now over. We will not be taking any more trips to Stanford. That is all over with now.   



My Dad Joins a Long List of People

Glioblastoma is an especially terminal and brutal disease.  Here are some articles that you can read about it here, here and here.

The list of talented people who died of a glioblastoma over the years is staggering. These are some of the people who have been killed by this disease.

  1. John McCain
  2. Edward Kennedy
  3. Beau Biden son of Joe Biden
  4. George Gershwin
  5. Gene Siskel
  6. Eero Saarinen
  7. Mary Shelley
  8. Eric Liddell
  9. Lee Atwater

The list goes on and on. But there is one more person that sadly can be added to that list. Its my dear, gentle and loving father. The guy I called Dad for 43 years.


I Miss my Dad

I miss my Dad so much. Two months out and two months of loss that feels like it grows with time. The void is noticeable. To not hear my Dad’s voice or hear him call me is painful. I went into a wine store at Casa de Fruita and was thinking of Dad. I ordered wine the other day to honor Dad. I have worn my Missouri t-shirt and sweatshirt so much to honor my Dad. For me my mourning is raw and new. Its something I will speak with a grief counselor about. Its my painful burden that I will bear until the end of my life. My Dad was one of the most gentle, kind, loving, compassionate and caring. No one can fill Dad’s shoes, nor should they try. But my love for Dad will not fade in his loss. Instead it will grow especially as Dad would want me to go forward. Dad I love you!